Forgive

I forgive you because you know not what you do 

I forgive you because you still don't realize what you put me through

I forgive for taking advantage of my kindness

I forgive you because again you didn't realize it 

I forgive you for putting a hand around my throat

I forgive you because you thought that's what I want 

I forgive you for entering my space allowing your broken glow stick to enter my cave

but I guess you can say I allowed it to stay because you wanted it that way

you took my objections as yeses until I didn't say a thing 

you used your manipulation so you can pleasure your pain

you entered inside me whenever you needed even if I didn't feel good or just pleaded

I guess I cannot blame you because I did lay in the bed 

but all i wanted was to cuddle not be forced to give you head

or be forced on top so you could get a quick nut in

I placed my head on a pillow to sleep instead I got the constant repeat of 

real fast real quick you’ll do it if you love me or are you not attracted to me anymore

and at that point in time, I wasn't, I didn't want the sex I didn't even want your text

I wanted to salvage a friendship that was made but you changed 

you plunged into me whenever  you wanted and I thought it was okay because I had a title with my name 

I always objected but it never changed you always got your way

and I didn't realize this until  you place a seed in me 

and said you weren't the one that you could never really cum

you said I was wack and you weren't into it

you said you did it because you couldn't have the girl you wanted

yes its true that I was never in love with you but I did trust you

as a friend and that ended because you made me feel like shit

a whore someone who could never be attractive

you told me you were with me just for some action

but I thank you

you gave me my whole world and even if you didn't want her

she was the best thing ive ever created

so I thank and forgive you